.one.hand.high. 02.08.05 :::: I can hold onto only you can save me 15.05.05 :::: - 09.03.05 :::: - 08.03.05 :::: - 13.02.05 :::: - 04.12.04 :::: - 11.11.04 :::: - 09.11.04 :::: The days behind you are haunting the ones you're living in now 07.11.04 :::: I'm learning to trust you enough to take from you 31.10.04 :::: - 06.10.04 :::: You gave up smoking and started chain-smoking. 06.10.04 :::: - 21.09.04 :::: - 15.09.04 :::: - 28.08.04 :::: - 28.08.04 :::: kissed you in a style clark gable would have admired 16.08.04 :::: - 05.08.04 :::: life in fragments 02.08.04 :::: it's time to switch to whiskey, we've been drinkin' beer all night 30.07.04 :::: i love you always, i mean forever. 27.07.04 :::: nostalgia 25.07.04 :::: beautiful & tragic 19.07.04 :::: she's got no interest in anything at all 15.07.04 :::: - 15.07.04 :::: you wanna piece of me? 15.07.04 :::: still a little bit of your taste in my mouth 14.07.04 :::: i should be stronger than weeping alone, you should be weaker than sending me home 13.07.04 :::: one thing you never got the chance to know 09.07.04 :::: fuck. 09.07.04 :::: i have hiccups and wish i was dead. 04.07.04 :::: bing, bang, boom, straight to the moon 28.06.04 :::: nuts to politics. 25.06.04 :::: the hypocritical oath. 23.06.04 :::: ouch! my feelings! 22.06.04 :::: finding comfort in the bottom of a bottle of whiskey. 20.06.04 :::: - 20.06.04 :::: my hands won't stop shaking & that can't be good 20.06.04 :::: too late, tonight i'm gone 18.06.04 :::: i know i'll wake up wanting you. 07.06.04 :::: fun! 05.06.04 :::: oh, the pain! 03.06.04 :::: too bad it's not fiction 01.06.04 :::: we can go anywhere you want to 29.05.04 :::: i would forget you if i only could think about anything else 29.05.04 :::: i should get my own sitcom. 29.05.04 :::: goodbye to you. 26.05.04 :::: i'll meet you at seven, i miss you already 24.05.04 :::: all i have is twenty-seven dollars & the keys to a cadillac 21.05.04 :::: she had a weakness for writers & i was ne'er that good at the words, anyway 18.05.04 :::: she drank all the whiskey, but left me the rye 16.05.04 :::: sometimes it's good to be alone. 14.05.04 :::: - 13.05.04 :::: it's easier just to close our eyes. 13.05.04 :::: a disturbing confession. 12.05.04 :::: where do we go from here? 11.05.04 :::: I breathe out smoke against the window, trace the letters in your name. 10.05.04 :::: even if your heart is broken, both pieces are still inside you. 10.05.04 :::: another wasted night. 04.05.04 :::: le punch! 03.05.04 :::: the sounds that surround 28.04.04 :::: all packed up, nowhere to go. 27.04.04 :::: random musing. 21.04.04 :::: skin so soft, so smooth, & you're so beautiful 19.04.04 :::: a kiss won't make you make you stay, please don't walk away. 18.04.04 :::: i won't ask you to give up on the things that keep you gone, but i can be gone, too. 18.04.04 :::: wish i was enough to make you forget, the only girl who ever broke your heart 18.04.04 :::: - 16.04.04 :::: let them think what they want, all i want is you. 16.04.04 :::: le sigh. 14.04.04 :::: i want to be remember as a smiling face, not this fucking wreck that's taken its place. 14.04.04 :::: we dance & dance 'til our bodies glisten 09.04.04 :::: argh! 09.04.04 :::: you wanna know who i really am? well, so do i. 08.04.04 :::: too late, tonight i'm gone. 07.04.04 :::: a conversation. 04.04.04 :::: glowing me, choking you. 02.04.04 :::: we'd fall asleep in each other's arms 31.03.04 :::: hold me now, one more time! 29.03.04 :::: & now what? 27.03.04 :::: the night is young & so is my heart. 18.03.04 :::: reading love letters, placing them in a box underneath my bed 17.03.04 :::: the boy requirement list 08.03.04 :::: the biggest trouble i have right now. 02.01.04 :::: i still miss you, my sweet complication. 24.12.03 :::: - 18.12.03 :::: i'm not afraid to say that i hate you. 07.12.03 :::: warning: existential angst ahead. 27.11.03 :::: do you dance? 26.11.03 :::: Wish I didn't want you, didn't want you back. 25.11.03 :::: - 19.11.03 :::: Forsan et haec olin meminisse invalint. 16.11.03 :::: - 09.11.03 :::: What happened to our happy ending anyway? 06.11.03 :::: THIS UPDATE IS HUGE! 20.10.03 :::: - 10.10.03 :::: - 07.10.03 :::: - 07.10.03 :::: - 30.09.03 :::: oops. 24.09.03 :::: - 22.09.03 :::: & i was scared to death of eternity. 22.09.03 :::: Viewer discretion advised. 09.09.03 :::: I am recruiting you. 07.09.03 :::: My mom's DEAD! 29.08.03 :::: This is where I say I've had enough. 22.08.03 :::: - 21.08.03 :::: - 17.08.03 :::: - 06.08.03 :::: - 06.08.03 :::: - 23.07.03 :::: - 22.07.03 :::: - 20.07.03 :::: Not one word to your old man. 17.07.03 :::: - 16.07.03 :::: - 14.07.03 :::: This is mostly untrue. 13.07.03 :::: Ball berries. 11.07.03 :::: - 10.07.03 :::: What does sleep feel like again? 09.07.03 :::: Did I mention he has a Dashboard Confessional t-shirt? 09.07.03 :::: - 07.07.03 :::: - 29.06.03 :::: God, I'm a nerd. 17.06.03 :::: Unnatural and quick. 15.06.03 :::: Filth! 09.06.03 :::: Holy crap. 08.06.03 :::: Make my calculator say hello. 08.06.03 :::: This is how we live. 07.06.03 :::: Shameles plug. 05.06.03 :::: The Ewoks join the fight. 26.05.03 :::: Bling bling. 24.05.03 :::: For the love of God, kill me. 24.05.03 :::: Move with the maestro. 23.05.03 :::: Three cheers for Cristina! 22.05.03 :::: Pitiful self-loathing 20.05.03 :::: The cat!The cat! 18.05.03 :::: The next time we pass on the street 16.05.03 :::: Siggidy sigh. 16.05.03 :::: Siggidy sigh. 16.05.03 :::: Holy fucking crap! 15.05.03 :::: Dead Letter Office I 15.05.03 :::: When the day breaks 14.05.03 :::: And perfectness will never be. 14.05.03 :::: - 12.05.03 :::: Help me! 10.05.03 :::: and she left nothing but the miles that I can't get apart from her 06.05.03 :::: I have no friends. 25.04.03 :::: get in or get out! 23.04.03 :::: say what say what 20.04.03 :::: "I said 'CAN WE START THE STORY NOW?!'" 19.04.03 :::: My so-called life. 17.04.03 :::: Kick-start my rock'n'roll heart. 16.04.03 :::: The update (is lame) 14.04.03 :::: Who's to know? 11.04.03 :::: And you say. 10.04.03 :::: I miss you. 09.04.03 :::: Live life like the captain of a sinking ship 08.04.03 :::: Let me bring you down. 07.04.03 :::: - 05.04.03 :::: Ice cream treats. 05.04.03 :::: Ice cream treats. 03.04.03 :::: Will I ever get anywhere better than this? 03.04.03 :::: I can't take this much longer 26.03.03 :::: Great Canadian Fuckers! 25.03.03 :::: Itchy lips. 24.03.03 :::: Fuck you. 24.03.03 :::: My sister, the psycho. 21.03.03 :::: GODDAMN YOU TO HELL, DIARYLAND! 16.03.03 :::: I wish it didn't hurt, hurt like this. 09.03.03 :::: But you won't see me cry. 08.03.03 :::: It's Jaime's birthday!! 06.03.03 :::: Four days. 05.03.03 :::: The dynamic effects of gravity. 04.03.03 :::: Don't worry, you're only hurting me. 03.03.03 :::: I tired to bring you back, but it's over somehow. 02.03.03 :::: Then break it. 01.03.03 :::: - 27.02.03 :::: Help me. 24.02.03 :::: You're TOAST. 24.02.03 :::: Fucking fuck ass bitch fuck SHIT. 15.02.03 :::: Did you know my sweet? 14.02.03 :::: On the radio. 11.02.03 :::: And the meaning is lost. 08.02.03 :::: These days are stuck on pause. 06.02.03 :::: - 03.02.03 :::: Only Ashley. 01.02.03 :::: Droppin' many suckas 29.01.03 :::: Don't waste your breath 24.01.03 :::: Is this what life is? 20.01.03 :::: You're not with me. 10.01.03 :::: - 04.01.03 :::: Stupidest entry EVER. 01.01.03 :::: - 26.12.02 :::: Bum-Da-Bum-Bum 20.12.02 :::: Victoria is a-okay. 19.12.02 :::: - 16.12.02 :::: A sort-of love story. 12.12.02 :::: I would hold you. 11.12.02 :::: *dies* 10.12.02 :::: My heart hurts. 10.12.02 :::: Even if your heart is broken, both pieces are inside you. 08.12.02 :::: Stress Inducing Holiday Syndrome 06.12.02 :::: Sad. 29.11.02 :::: My Hot Date 27.11.02 :::: death, o sweet, merciful death. 07.11.02 :::: i am so fucking off. 05.11.02 :::: - 04.11.02 :::: - 01.11.02 :::: jesus ass fuck. 16.10.02 :::: - 14.10.02 :::: oh god, make this stop. 05.10.02 :::: touch your skin and i can't take it 01.10.02 :::: i'm a hooker-savin' machine! 29.09.02 :::: all decisions are final. 29.09.02 :::: my eyes are burning. 27.09.02 :::: i miss dani 17.09.02 :::: letters and pizza pies. 14.09.02 :::: so friggin tiiiiired 14.09.02 :::: infatuation times a million-bazillion. 21.06.02 :::: friends are stupid 14.06.02 :::: compromise 13.05.02 :::: another update, another day 08.05.02 :::: ash update 05.05.02 :::: drunk people piss me off when i'm trying to sleep 30.04.02 :::: i retain all my teeth, but not my sanity 23.04.02 :::: jared 23.04.02 :::: - 19.04.02 :::: soft bones are lame 18.04.02 :::: self-doubt 17.04.02 :::: name that odor! 17.04.02 :::: upcoming 16.04.02 :::: survey = fun! 16.04.02 :::: what have i done?! 16.04.02 :::: what have i done?! 15.04.02 :::: godammit, i care. 15.04.02 :::: i suck! 15.04.02 :::: you complicate me 14.04.02 :::: confusion and web design 12.04.02 :::: dads are dinks 11.04.02 :::: - 10.04.02 :::: remembering sara 10.04.02 :::: i AM fat. 10.04.02 :::: it's too bad it's so good 10.04.02 :::: - 09.04.02 :::: what's wrong with me 01.04.02 :::: stupid lemon tarts 01.04.02 :::: - 27.03.02 :::: - 26.03.02 :::: a solemn vow 25.03.02 :::: - 24.03.02 :::: - 24.03.02 :::: tonight could be perfect 22.03.02 :::: all done fighting 22.03.02 :::: phew..ouch 21.03.02 :::: oh! angst songs! 20.03.02 :::: day one 19.03.02 :::: a survey...buahahha 19.03.02 :::: people. 19.03.02 :::: i lied my face off 18.03.02 :::: a desperate plea 18.03.02 :::: 9 1/2 weeks 18.03.02 :::: folk > country 17.03.02 :::: sigh 16.03.02 :::: good > bad 16.03.02 :::: eek! 16.03.02 :::: dirty! :) 14.03.02 :::: the boy is a hedonist 02.03.02 :::: love this life 02.03.02 :::: DRUNK! 01.03.02 :::: strawberry wiiiine 28.02.02 :::: melodrama = fun! 28.02.02 :::: yay! homelessness! 27.02.02 :::: newspapers are sad 26.02.02 :::: my mom hates me 25.02.02 :::: the lack of everything 24.02.02 :::: i'm scared of the dark 23.02.02 :::: i wish i could shut off my brain 23.02.02 :::: sara hates sean :) 22.02.02 :::: i can't be happy in stupidity 22.02.02 :::: - 21.02.02 :::: that's why i love her 21.02.02 :::: motives unknown 21.02.02 :::: gross and ugly = bad 21.02.02 :::: i hate you ashley jenson (and other things you can't respond to) 20.02.02 :::: long, lonely days 19.02.02 :::: i smell like poop! 18.02.02 :::: just another reason to hate myself. 16.02.02 :::: cowboys and sluts are delicious 14.02.02 :::: how are YOU? 13.02.02 :::: boo! happy birthday me. 10.02.02 :::: fuck responsibility 08.02.02 :::: not a friend in the world 07.02.02 :::: expletives are neat 07.02.02 :::: you're so goddamn stubborn 06.02.02 :::: the pits 05.02.02 :::: no one but me 03.02.02 :::: boys are lame 03.02.02 :::: quiz 03.02.02 :::: fairy tale 03.02.02 :::: webcam 31.01.02 :::: what now? 31.01.02 :::: how emo can you be? 31.01.02 :::: happiness 28.01.02 :::: insecurity bullshit 25.01.02 :::: holden caulfield 25.01.02 :::: boring ash 19.01.02 :::: the day before the ass bruises 17.01.02 :::: revelations in solitude 16.01.02 :::: goodbye 16.01.02 :::: ANOTHER piece of crap 16.01.02 :::: nothing to say 16.01.02 :::: i hate boys 15.01.02 :::: pre-blair 14.01.02 :::: come monday 13.01.02 :::: i didn't deserve you 13.01.02 :::: nicole's words 12.01.02 :::: disenchanted 12.01.02 :::: being your friend 11.01.02 :::: triumphant return 10.01.02 :::: wrong again

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