breaking hearts has never looked so cool [ 25.07.04 - 9:24 beautiful & tragic ] i'm deliriously tired, thanks to the mere two-point-five hours (being generous) sleep i got last night. i had one of the worst anxiety attacks i've ever had & i couldn't seem to shake it. i was in bed at 11:30 & was woken up by 12:30 by a bad dream, which led into the terrible anxiety attack. i was up for the rest of the night, trying everything i could to recover, but it wasn't happening. i even got a drunk as dared two hours before i had to come into work. ugh...so goddamn tired. as you all know, my mom came down on saturday. it was a great time. we went shopping at various home renovation stores & ikea! & had dinner at earl's. i made sure to leave calvin alone with my mom's loser-ish boyfriend as often as possible, just because it was funny. i want to go up to cold lake some weekend in august, because my mom is having my sister over & we're going to have a 'slumber party' in her words. this, to me, translates to 'getting pissed with my mum & eating pizza on her dime'. my mom called calvin 'very nice' & phil shat in my bathroom twice. gross. strangely, saturday also was the day jay suddenly decided to call me. i haven't talked to him since march, & all the sudden, he leaves this message on my machine. when i asked if he had cancer & why was he calling me, he replied that i was a 'cool girl'. screaming accolades for ashley! anyway, he's supposed to call me tonight, although i'm not counting on it. i sort of hope he does, though, as that would be a step toward my 'hang out with new people' goal. sunday was absolutely smashing! Y [ previous entry - next entry ]

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