breaking hearts has never looked so cool [ 14.05.04 - 6:16 - ] well, it seems that the beast has been sated & now it is permissible for communication with my friend to occur. he emailed me, jovially declaring his victory & asking my forgiveness. sadly, i had to decline, as my trust in him was destroyed. how disposable i felt. i can't pretend that just never happened, can i? am i supposed to be the 'good friend' here, smile, write, confide, laugh, call after all that? maybe i could write to him, send him birthday cards that end with 'say hi to _______', but it would all be dishonest. & if there's one thing that never occured between he & i, it was honesty (& a romantic relationship, i might add, to further perpetuate the point that this was ridiculous). i don't know yet if i've made the right decision. i do know, however, that i still feel disposable. [ previous entry - next entry ]

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