breaking hearts has never looked so cool [ 27.04.04 - 2:06 random musing. ] self-destructive behaviors to consider integrating into my everyday behavior: - instead of bringing up the fact that my friends insist on befriending people who have hurt me & causing the subsequent fights, i will contain all my rage & hurt into a tidy ball & refuse to speak to them. - i will blatantly go out of my way to be rude to people i don't like, instead of my slightly passive approach. - when a homeless person screams 'got change?!' in my face, i will kick them in theirs. - i will point out when people's dreams, aspirations & hopes are stupid. - i will stop dating people i don't like because they're nice to me. self-loathing is chic. - i will eat whatever i want. instead of water, i will drink alcohol. i will spend my money on cigarettes rather than food. - i will pick fights with people over trivial matters, as often as possible in other news, justin was nice enough to upload some photos for me. amusing & delightful: ian, the victoria boyfriend who didn't break my heart (oh!) | other ian, my calgary boyfriend who didn't break my heart | it might be blurry, but it's magnificent | | kevin doing "the jordy" | the obligatory show photo | ah, the memories. i'm sure i'll have more coming soon. thanks, j.! so i move on friday - that's in about three days - & i haven't packed a single thing. actually, that's not true, because i did pack my 'zine collection. but other than that, nada. the way i figure it, i'm just going to roam around my house with a box, knocking things off table tops and from under the couch. then i will take all my (dirty) clothes and throw it in my gigundo suitcase. finally, i will throw it all in the van & the equipment trailer thing & finally leave the ghetto forever. i'm totally just leaving the keys (& the mess) in my apartment, & not saying a word to cap'n slumlord. asshole. [ previous entry - next entry ]

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